Former White House intern Monica Lewinsky has broken her silence on her 1990s affair with then United States president Bill Clinton, saying he took advantage of her even though it was a "consensual relationship".
"I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton. Let me say it again: I. Myself. Deeply. Regret. What. Happened," Lewinsky says in an exclusive article she wrote for Vanity Fair magazine.
In the article, Lewinsky, 40, says it is time to stop "tiptoeing around my past -- and other people's futures. I am determined to have a different ending to my story."
"I've decided, finally, to stick my head above the parapet so that I can take back my narrative and give a purpose to my past. What this will cost me, I will soon find out," she said.
The full article will be available on May 8.
Maintaining that her affair with Clinton was one between two consenting adults, Lewinsky writes that it was the public humiliation she suffered in the wake of the scandal that permanently altered the direction of her life, according to Vanity Fair.
"Sure, my boss took advantage of me, but I will always remain firm on this point: it was a consensual relationship," she says in the article.
"Any 'abuse' came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position...The Clinton administration, the special prosecutor's minions, the political operatives on both sides of the aisle, and the media were able to brand me. And that brand stuck, in part because it was imbued with power," she wrote according to the excerpts.
Writing for the first time about her affair with Clinton, Lewinsky says, "It's time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress."
After the controversy, she maintained silence, giving rise to the speculation that the Clintons might have paid her off.
"The buzz in some circles has been that the Clintons must have paid me off; why else would I have refrained from speaking out? I can assure you that nothing could be further from the truth," Lewinsky, said.
Lewinsky says in the article that when the news of her affair with Clinton broke in 1998, not only was she arguably the most humiliated person in the world, but "thanks to the Drudge Report, I was also possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet."
Her current goal, she says, is “to get involved with efforts on behalf of victims of online humiliation and harassment and to start speaking on this topic in public forums”.
Image: Monica Lewinsky attends a show during the Mercedes Benz Fashion Week 2002 in New York City
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