Every time he goes to out to bat for West Indies [ Images ], Marlon Samuels faces an awkward dilemma.
The 30-year-old Jamaican batsman is in a desperate hurry to make up for lost time after being banned from the sport for two years for a crime he insists he did not commit.
Yet at the same time, he is desperate to take his time and savour every moment he gets, knowing that every opportunity may be his last.
"I accept obstacles in my way now," he told a news conference on Thursday after making a superb 78 not out in the second Test against India [ Images ].
"So I plan for obstacles. I expect there will be more in front of me.
"I take life more seriously now, and I take cricket more seriously as well."
Samuels was banned from playing for two years from 2008 to 2010 after he was found guilty by the International Cricket Council [ Images ] (ICC [ Images ]) of passing on team information to a bookmaker during a one-day series in India.
He denied any wrongdoing and said he was made a scapegoat by officials but the suspension stood and he was not allowed to play even friendly club matches.
But he vowed to make a return and made a return for Jamaica last year then was given his chance with West Indies last month when he was picked to play against Pakistan.
He celebrated his return to the Test arena with a half-century only to find himself left out of the team to play India in the first Test in Jamaica.
But he was given another chance when the selectors dumped vice-captain Brendan Nash [ Images ] after West Indies lost the first Test and Samuels repaid the faith by scoring an unbeaten 78 on Thursday from his first innings total of 190.
"It made a hotter fire inside of me. Now, I've got this opportunity, I want to take it with both hands," he said.
"After coming back after a long time, my mindset is definitely different. I want to bat out there much longer now. I wanted to get a hundred, that's my attitude now. I wasn't satisfied with 78."