'I cannot serve, I make mistakes ... I do not feel right and it shows.'
An emotional Gael Monfils exited the Australian Open in anguish on Monday after a shock five-set loss to Finnish tyro Emil Ruusuvuori and said he felt trapped in a "nightmare" as he battles through a form slump.
Tenth seed Monfils, who last tasted victory in Dubai nearly a year ago, crashed to his seventh successive loss and only his second first-round defeat at Melbourne Park.
"I lost, I have zero confidence, I played badly," Monfils told reporters, his voice breaking as he held back tears after the 3-6, 6-4, 7-5, 3-6, 6-3 loss.
"I cannot serve, I make mistakes ... I do not feel right and it shows.
"I know that I have lost a lot and it hurts me. I would like to wake up and tell myself that this nightmare is over, but I don't know when it will stop.
"I have no confidence, I have no confidence."
Monfils, a former quarter-finalist at Melbourne Park, converted only six out of 23 break points against 21-year-old Ruusuvuori, the world number 86 who was in his main draw at the tournament.
The 34-year-old Monfils's last first-round exit in Melbourne came in 2006.
Ruusuvuori was Monfils's practice partner during their mandatory two-week quarantine after arriving in the country.
"I think he was just playing his game ... It was way enough to beat me today," said Monfils.