Bigg Boss 5 was television actor Amar Upadhyay's first brush with a reality show. Even though he played his cards well, he lost out to Juhi Parmar.

"I have always openly said that I played games," Amar says. "I tried to play a smart game. I used my mind and not my heart. I tested my patience level; some housemates tried to instigate me but I tried to remain calm. I have no hard feelings for any one after the show."

He calls Bigg Boss a "psychological game" and said co-contestants were trying to "psyche" him. "They were kind of trying to poke me left, right and centre but I maintained my cool."

He did not expect to be the first one to be evicted during the finale.

"I was shocked when my name was announced because I expected to see myself in the top three. The best part was that when I came out, the crew said they wanted me to win. That's my victory because they were the ones who watch the whole thing 24/7," he says.

Asked to comment on the allegations made by co-contestants Sunny Leone and Sonali Nagrani that he was a bit too familiar with them, he says, "I have worked with so many female actresses, no one has ever said anything is wrong about me. They know what I am and how I work. If they don't say anything, then who is Sunny Leone?

"She has just come here some time back. I don't care about whatever she has said. I know I'm a family person and my family knows how I behave."

Sunny had said in an interview that she would not forgive Amar and would not stay in touch with him. "I care a damn. Do you think I want to be in touch with her?

"Excuse me, jiskay pas dimag hi nahi hai Jism 2 jaisi film kar rahi hai (she's someone who doesn't have brains and is doing a film like Jism 2)... I don't want to comment further," he says.

He adds, "In the case of Shonali, she has apologised to me a hundred times inside the house."

"I was in a game show and I was playing games. You saw the real Amar only when I snapped back because it was beyond my control," he adds.

On being quizzed whether Juhi Parmar deserved to win, Amar says, "Yes. I knew she would win. India ka beta nahi jeeta toh it was obvious ki bahu jeetegi (When India's son didn't win, it had to be the daughter-in-law, referring to their popular roles in TV soaps -- he played a son in Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi and Juhi played a daughter-in-law in Kumkum). I wish her all the luck and cherish every moment."