lz„ dp_y„ Ry>„ L¡$ ifuf A¡ A`ug_y„ Apf„ctbvy$ R>¡. Ly$dpf lp¡e L¡$ eyhp lp¡e, dÝeheõL$ lp¡e L¡$ heõL$ lp¡e L¡$ `ïQps¹heõL$ lp¡e, `yfyj `p¡sp_p¡ Qpd®, `p¡sp_u N°¡k fpMu iL¡$ R>¡. S>¡ kdpÅ¡dp„ ifuf_¡ _Á_ L¡$ A^®_Á_ L$fhy„ `X¡$ R>¡ Ðep„ ifufp¡ Qyõs, A¡\g¡qV$L$, R>flfp„, ku^p„ fpMhp„ S> `X¡$ R>¡. rQÑp_u S>¡d v$p¡X$sp¡ `yfyj d_¡ M|bk|fs gpÁep¡ S> R>¡, L$v$pQ NyS>fpsu ÷uAp¡_¡ bpa¡gp bV$pV$p S>¡hu v$pY$uhpmp¡ R>p¡L$fp¡ M|bk|fs gpNu iL¡$ R>¡. rhQpfc¡v$, fyrQc¡v$, ×rô$c¡v$, dsc¡v$ A_¡ AÞe b^p S> c¡v$p¡ lp¡hp_p¡ k„`|Z® AhL$pi R>¡. S>¡ `yfyj dpÓ lufp¡ b_u iL¡$ R>¡ A¡ dpfu Ap„Mp¡dp„ a¼s A¡L$ "õV$X$-byg' R>¡, A¡ bmv$ S>¡_y„ L$pd sb¡gpdp„ Npe_¡ Nc®hsu L$fhp_y„ R>¡ L¡$ S>¡\u hpR>fX$p„Ap¡_u _õg s„vy$fõs Aphsu fl¡. `yfyj fp¡g-dp¡X¡$g lp¡e sp¡ dpfu Ap„Mp¡dp„ A¡ Apv$i® R>¡. dpfp¡ Apv$i® `yfyj N°uL$ v¡$hsp R>¡, rlÞvy$ v¡$hsp _l], rlÞvy$ v¡$hsp `pk¡ dpÓ qv$dpN lp¡e R>¡, ifufkp¥›$h _\u, N°uL$ v¡$hsp `pk¡ "åe|V$u, b°p¡Þk A¡ÞX$ b¡°BÞk' A¡ ÓZ¡ lp¡e R>¡ : M|bk|fsu, ifufi[¼s A_¡ Ly$ipN°byqÙ! A¡\¡Þk_p Brslpkdp„ A¡L$ A¡hp¡ `yfyj Apìep¡ lsp¡ : `¡qf[¼gk, A_¡ Brslpkdp„ A¡_p¡ L$pg `¡qf[¼gk_p eyN sfuL¡$ Ap¡mMpe R>¡. `¡qf[¼gk M|bk|fs lsp¡, ki¼s lsp¡ A_¡ bp¥qÙL$ lsp¡. rlÞvy$õsp__p kp„`°s Brslpkdp„ A¡hp¡ S> A¡L$ `¡qf[¼gk Apìep¡ lsp¡ : S>hplfgpg _¡lfy! A¡ L$p¡C `Z qaëdõV$pf L¡$ fpS>Ly$dpf_¡ V$½$f dpf¡ A¡V$gp l¡ÞX$kd lsp, sfhy„, Op¡X¡$khpfu, dv$p®_p tS>v$Nu A¡ _¡lfy_p V$¡²X$dpL®$ lsp, A_¡ A¡ d_uju lsp, BrslpkL$pf lsp, L$rhqv$g lsp. kp¦v$e®, i[¼s A_¡ byqÙ_p¡ Aphp¡ k„Nd, A¡L$ S> `yfyjdp„, _¡lfy `R>u rlÞvy$õsp__p fpS>L$ue agL$ `f Å¡hpdp„ Apìep¡ _\u. Nygpbu Nygpbu lkhy„, Bg¡[¼V$²L$ awrs®\u Qpghy„, agpkafp_p NlfpCdp„ Esfu_¡ tS>v$Nu_¡ kdS>hu, Aphu b^u _¡lfy_u A`ug lsu. MfS>_p¡ AhpS> A_¡ L$rhÐh_p¡ `fhpT...ka¡v$ Op¡X$p `f b¡ku_¡ hpBkfp¡e_¡ dmhp S>sp _¡lfy, Nygpb_p awgp¡_p ip¡Mu_ _¡lfy, lõspnf g¡hp Aph_pfp„ S>hp_ R>p¡L$fpR>p¡L$fuAp¡_¡ "rgh X¡$ÞS>fkgu!' (Msf_pL$ Æhp¡!) gMu Ap`sp _¡lfy. Ap dpZk S>¡hu d¡g-A`ug blz Ap¡R>p dpZkp¡ `pk¡ lsu. ApS>_p rlÞvy$õsp__p ÅqX$ep`pqX$ep, Mv$bv$uav$av$u Ne¡gp, AXy$qL$epv$Xy$qL$ep, OqV$epaqV$ep _¡spAp¡_p S>dp_pdp„ `¡qf[¼gk L¡$ _¡lfy_u hps L$fsp„ `Z sL$gua `X¡$ R>¡. d_¡ gpN¡ R>¡ L¡$ ApS>¡ g¡qV$_ Ad¡qfL$pdp„ A¡hp _¡spAp¡  Ecfu füp R>¡, S>hp_, M|bk|fs, byqÙdp_, blpvy$f, ApS>£[ÞV$_p A_¡ b°pqTg A_¡ L$p¡gp¡[çbep A_¡ A¡hp ÓuÅ rhïh_p v¡$ip¡dp„, Äep„ `yfyj_u d¡g-A`ug\u dsv$p__p¡ Y$Ngp¡ \C Åe R>¡. ApS>£[ÞV$_p_p fpô$²`rs d¡_¡_ Äepf¡ v¡$i_u awV$bp¡g V$ud_u hv$} `l¡fu_¡ fpô$²ue awV$bp¡g V$ud_u kp\¡ d¡v$p_dp„ a|V$bp¡g fdhp Esf¡ R>¡ Ðepf¡ ApMp v¡$i_p S>hp_p¡ `pNg \C Åe R>¡ (S>hp_ ÷uAp¡ `Z). NyS>fps_p `°^p_d„X$m_p d„ÓuAp¡_¡ ip¡V¹$k® A_¡ V$u-iV®$ `l¡fphu_¡ ap¡V$p¡ `pX$ép¡ lp¡e A_¡ lzsysysy fdhp Dspep® lp¡e sp¡ NyS>fps_p S>hp_p¡ `Z `pNg \C Åe (A_¡ S>hp_ ÷uAp¡ `Z...!) Å¡L¡$ Ap`Z¡ Ðep„ d„ÓuAp¡ QpqfÔehp_ R>¡¡, L$p¡W$pk|Thpmp R>¡, kdSy> R>¡ A¡V$g¡ Aphy„ L$f¡ _l]. A_¡ Ål¡fdp„ ...sy...sy...sy...sy... bp¡ghy„ ip¡cpõ`v$ `Z _\u_¡!

L$l¡hpe R>¡ L¡$ ÷u_y„ ê$` gp„by„ V$L$sy„ _\u. `Z `yfyj_u d¡g-A`ug ê$`ku ÷u_p ê$` L$fsp„ `Z Ap¡R>u V$L¡$ R>¡. Å¡ d¡g-A`ug A\hp `yfyj_y„ ApL$j®Z Å_hfu lp¡e sp¡ A¡_u dep®v$p b„^pC Åe R>¡. `iy Äepf¡ F>sydp„ Aph¡ R>¡ Ðepf¡ _f dpv$p_¡  "d¡qV„$N-L$p¡g' L$f¡ R>¡ (Ap_y„ NyS>fpsu k|Tsy„ _\u!). Ap A¡L$ Sy>v$p `°L$pf_p¡ AhpS>, Quk, rQÐL$pf R>¡, k„h__ A_¡ k¡¼k-A¡¼V$_p sfaX$pV$_p¡, A_¡ Ap AhpS> kp„cmu_¡ dpv$p _f `pk¡ v$p¡X$su `lp¢Qu Åe R>¡. d¡qV„$N-L$p¡g_u L¡$ k¡¼k_pv$_u A¡L$ F>sy lp¡e R>¡, k¡¼k-A¡¼V$ \C Åe R>¡ A_¡ dpv$p A_¡ _f R|>V$p„ `X$u Åe R>¡ L$pfZ L¡$ `iyAp¡dp„ dçdu A_¡ `à`p lp¡sp„ _\u. d_yóe kdpS>dp„ Æh¡ R>¡, Æh_cf d¡qV„$N-L$p¡g L$fsp¡ flu_¡ Nd¡ s¡ dpv$p kp\¡ ifufk„b„^ fpMu_¡ Æhu iL$sp¡ _\u A_¡ A¡ `fZ¡ R>¡, OZu hpf `fZhy„ `X¡$ R>¡. kdpS>Æh__u A¡L$ dlÒh`|Z® OV$_p gÁ_ R>¡, S>¡ `yfyj_u A`ug_p A„s_p¡ Apf„c R>¡! gÁ_ `R>u "ApB gh e|!' W$fhp gpN¡ R>¡, gÁ_ `R>u k¡¼k lp¡ghphp gpN¡ R>¡, gÁ_ `R>u `°¡d `f fpM_u `s® Ådhp gpN¡ R>¡. Ap A¡L$ Ar`°e rhfp¡r^sp R>¡ `Z e\p\® R>¡. gÁ_dp„ k¡¼k `l¡gu S>ê$qfeps lp¡e R>¡, `R>u A¡ 17du, 39du, 68du A_¡ 113du S>ê$qfeps b_su Åe R>¡, d¡g-A`ug _pd_p¡ iåv$ Æh_dp„\u rhgu_ \hp gpN¡ R>¡. lh¡ khpf¡ çeyr_rk`prgV$u_y„ `pZu huk S> rdr_V$ Aph¡ R>¡ A_¡ b`p¡f¡ v|$^ Apìey„ _\u A_¡ f¡i_dp„ Mp„X$ `„v$f qv$hk `R>u `Z dmu _\u A_¡ b¡bu_¡ Ap¡fu S>¡hy„ gpN¡ R>¡ A_¡ N¡k_u V$p„L$u ApS>L$pg v$kbpf qv$hk ky^u Aphsu _\u A_¡ A„^¡fu_u bk dpV¡$ L$pg¡ `p¡Zp¡ L$gpL$ Ecp fl¡hy„ `X$éy„ lsy„ A_¡ fpÓ¡ `phf a¡Bg \ep¡ lsp¡ A¡V$g¡ Nfdudp„  KO Aphu _l] A_¡ cpcu_¡ ApW$dp¡ drl_p¡ b¡ku Nep¡ R>¡ A_¡ V$u_y_¡ ¼gpkdp„ bp¡X®$ `f h„Qpsy„ _\u A¡V$g¡ Qídp„_p _„bf L$Y$phhp S>hy„ R>¡ A_¡ `à`p_¡ _hp X¡$ÞQf b_phhp_p R>¡ A_¡ ir_hpf¡ Adv$phpv$\u _Z„v$ A¡_p„ R>p¡L$fp„Ap¡ kp\¡ Aphhp_u R>¡ L$pfZ L¡$ Ðep„ h¡L¡$i_ hl¡gy„ iê \C Ney„ R>¡ A_¡ kfe|bl¡__p lkbÞX$_¡ lpV®$AV¡$L$ Apìep¡ R>¡ A¡V$g¡ lp¡[õ`V$g S>hp_y„ R>¡ A_¡...L$pdhpmu bpCA¡ L$lu v$u^y„ R>¡ L¡$ bkp¡ êr`ep Ap`ip¡ sp¡ L$pg¡ Aphui, _l] sp¡...

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... L¡$ Cdp_v$pfu? rhïhk_uesp? v$p¡õsp_p? M¡gqv$gu? Dv$pfsp? d_yóeÐh?

d¡g-A`ug OZpb^p dpV¡$ OZub^u ìep¿epAp¡dp„ rhcprS>s \C NC R>¡. k¡¼k\u k„Þepk ky^u Nd¡ s¡ L$pfZkf `yfyj ÷u_¡ r`°e \C iL¡$ R>¡. A_¡ Nd¡ s¡ ÷u_¡ r`°e \ep L$fhp S>¡hu hprleps buÆ L$p¡C `°h©rÑ R>¡? "Vy$ gh'_u bpbsdp„ lz„ blz rhh¡L$byqÙ hp`fu iL$sp¡ _\u, `Z "Vy$ bu gìX$' L¡$ AÞe d_¡ `°¡d L$f¡ A¡ bpbsdp„ lz„ AÐe„s ksL®$ flz„ Ry>„. bk, d¡g-A`ug_p¡ A\® dpf¡ dpV¡$ A¡L$ S> R>¡ : `°¡d`pÓ \hy„.

(d¡ 19, 1994)

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Ap g¡M Ap`_¡ L¡$hp¡ gpÁep¡?